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It was a cold day in late November, the leaves were falling off the trees, and the air was crisp and cold.  The sky was a dark grey almost like it was going to rain, but had not started yet.  The wind was blowing fiercely and it knocked over trash cans that people sat on the curbs for the trash trucks.  A stray cat ran across the lawns which was running from one of the neighborhood dogs. 

Kas sat in her car and just stared at her home blankly.  She had been parked in her driveway for almost an half hour, non to the wiser either.  She wiped her cheeks where the fresh tears had just fallen, and rummaged through her purse to find a clean tissue to blow her nose.  She yanked the keys from her ignistion and got out of her BMW, and headed up to her door way.  She let herself into her dark drearie home, where only the beeping sound of her answering machine greeted her.

Her life was shit and now it’s even shittier now that he is not in it.   She has wasted her life on that jerkwad for seven years, and this is how he treated her.  She tossed her keys onto the table along with her purse and plopped down her couch.  She took a deep sigh, it didn’t help.   She got up and headed towards the kitchen she turned the over head lights on.  It took a moment for the florecent lights to flicker on.  She took out a wine glass out of the cabinet and the bottle of wine out of the refridgerator and poured herself a glass of wine.

 She walked out of the kitchen and down her hall towards the bathroom she was going to have a nice hot bubble bath.  She started getting the bath ready when she opened her medicine cabinet up and there they were just staring at her.  She reached in and picked up the bottle of her sleeping pills, and she gave them a long hard look.  She took the lid off them, and poured the contents in her hand all of it.  She looked at herself in the mirror.  Her tear streaked face and red runny nose stared back at her.  She was a pathetic sight.  She lifted her hand to her mouth and put the thirty or so pills into her mouth and reached for her wine glass….




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K, um I just posted this really long post and um, I can’t find it, errr, I hate learning to things LOL.

I just got done watching Lisa Williams: Life Among the Dead, a new lifetime show.  This woman is the first in a very long time to make me believe what she is actually saying.  She had 3 readings tonight and she was dead on all 3 of them, without any previous knowledge of the back story or whom she was meeting for the reading.  I think that she is a better medium then John Edwards and Sandra from Montel, truly I do. I have never seen a “pyschic” in real life, always on tv.  But, I think that in some way we are all little pyschic, it’s just allowing ourselves to open up in such a way. 

I have had dejavu all my life since i was a young girl.  I know what the scientific world describes dejavu as, and I say PFFFT. on all of that scientific jaz.  I have always had the ability to dream things before they happen, not RIGHT before they happen it could be months or years down the road before they happen.  I have recently kept a dream journal, its on a different blog, and it’s not a published blog, it’s only for me.  But I have seen similarities of what I’ve expierenced in past dreams that happen later in real life.  Freaky huh?!?

As you all know I have a “bubba”, and he has been so active the last 3 nights.  A little to active for my liking, he kept me up most of the night last night with his fun and games. I do believe this spirite is a male between the ages of 8 and 10.  He’s just to playful to be an older male, and I get the Male vibe not the female vibe frome the spirit.  Now no one ever died in this apartment to my knowledge, which I can ask my land lord on Wednesday if this is true, it’s been in her family since she was born.  I will ask if her son and his wife ever experienced strange occurances in here.  Nothing scary, just out of sorts, like bread on the floor doors openin themselves you know the normal stuff.  I will let you all know.

I think all of us could do some sort of medium if we really just open up to it.  I don’t allow myself to do it very often, because I am afraid of getting in contact of someone evil, and that would just freak my sh8t out.  I am not about the evil dark things, sure I watch scary movies, but that is for the thrill, or the laughs, but to actually experience the reality of an evil entity would be to much for this chic to hadle.

I know, I know show me to my padded cell now, and throw away the key.  But, I know that I’m not the only one that thinks this.  I know that some of you actually believe what I’m saying, that you too have had some experiences or thoughts or “dejavu” that you just could not explain as to why you experienced, or thought those things. 

Give me some of you input!


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“Bubba” and other True stories

Okay, well Barngoddess has got me in the mood to talk about ghosts and hauntings, plus this is the time of year for it!

I have a ghost, whom I have named “Bubba”. Now I don’t know if he is a male or a female spirit, but I Thought “Bubba” fit this entity just fine (is that the correct word? pfft I don’t know).

I first realized I had a ghost about 2 months after I moved into the apartment. Now, I don’t know if the other tenants ever had a problem (my ex boyfriend and his wife) with “Bubba”, but to me at first he was a nucience (sp?). Right before I went to sleep ever night I would feel my bed jar from the foot board. It jerked me awake every night. I got pissed one night and just yelled “WOULD YOU FREAKING QUIT!” Well since then it has not happened, lol.

Things would disappear for days, the reappear no where in the vacinity that I left them. It was strange.

A couple of times I have heard someone say my name, it’s usually really late at night, and NO I wasn’t asleep, normally watching tv or reading a book. It was a soft voice, not scary. A couple of times I answered to it, nimwhit, like “Bubba” would actually strike up a conversation. I don’t know what I was thinking. One night I heard something crash it made an awful noise, I thought something fell and broke. I got out of the bed and started searching the house, nothing, found absolutely nothing on the floor anywhere. I just laughed and said “Bubba, are you fooling with me again?” and went back to bed. I think he/she likes when I talk to him/her. I have NEVER felt like i was in the presence of an evil being, it’s always a nice feeling, kinda of a warm feeling, like maybe this spirit was an elderly person or even a child (discussed later in this post) that just doesn’t know that they are dead, I have not had the heart to tell him/her to go to the other side, I kinda like him/her there.

When I first started dating James, “Bubba” acted up alot. Never when James was around, he doesn’t believe I have a ghost/spirit. But whenever James would leave things started happening. Books a whole row of them falling off the book shelf, Bread being moved from counter to floor, doors shutting by themselves, and the dogs would run in the kitchen and bark their heads off for no reason. I sat down one night in the middle of my living room floor with all the lights off and had a discussion with “Bubba”, it went like this. “Bubba, I do not know why you are upset that I have a boyfriend, he is not going to hurt me or you, infact he doesn’t believe you exist. I would greatly appreciate if you would not throw books off shelves or put my expensive (sarah lee) bread on the floor. Now I’m going to bed, you be good”. Well the bread has never hit the floor again, but it hides from me every now and then.

One time I had just gotten all my dr suess books from when I was a child onto the shelf. I was on the phone and all the dr. suess books fell off the shelf, just them, no others and “Green eggs and ham” was on the floor opened, I went to pick them up and the page turned all by itself. K, that freaked me out. I mean who ever REALL expeirences a page turning by itself? The ceiling fan was on but on low, and it was winter so the windows were shut, the only draft that comes through is through the air conditioner unit, but never strong enough to turn a page in a book. I jumped back, and a little scream escaped my throat, then the dogs started running around barking and carring on. I picked up the books and put them back on the shelf, and went on with my business, a few seconds later I heard a “THUMP” and went back into the living room to see the SAME book on the floor opened up to the same page, I was okay, obviously SOME one wanted to read this book. So I gathered the book up and sat on the couch and read “Green Eggs and Ham” outloud feeling like a complete idiot. When I was done I put it back on the shelf and went on my way. I was cleaning the bathroom and I heard another thumb, I sighed, went back into the living room and another Dr. Suess book was on the floor opened, I ended up reading that book also, and I said after that book “No more I have things I need to do”. No more books fell for the rest of the day.

I have not heard much of “Bubba” lately, but last night he/she let themselves be known something in my walk in closet fell from the top shelf to the floor. It could not of fallen by itself, it was way back in the corner, and something was in front of it, it was a porcelian doll still in it’s box, she did not break, I put her back up on the shelf. I kinda get a feeling that this is a kid i’m dealing with or some immature spirit. LOL.


I lived in Wilson Hall while tending Northeastern State Univeristy In Oklahoma, in Tahlequah. THis was an Indian college and when it first started it was a womens college and alot of Native Americans attended it(i think at first it was purely a Native American college, but I could be wrong, laura if you still read this tell me if i’m wrong). It is a very old college campus, and there have been stories lurking around for years that there are hauntings in some of the buildings, in our dorm it was the Head Mistress (i think) whose name was Flo. They named the Cafe “Flos” in our dorm. People would say they saw an older woman lurking the halls checking on her “students” she would be upset if a girl and a boy were in the same room at night alone together. I lived in a co-ed dorm, my neighbors were boys. I never thought much of Flo, until one day I was in my dorm room, by myself and my glue stick took a flying leap off my desk and on the floor. I looked around and I didn’t see anything, I picked up the glue stick and put it back on my desk. I went to the bathroom then and came back and it was back on the floor, but on the other side of the room. Okay, I was a little freaked out. I told laura about this and she was a little freaked out. I was sleeping one night, Laura had gone home for the weekend, this would be the one weekend I DID NOT GO HOME, and even though I always locked our door when I went to sleep the door kept creeping open, I doubled checked to make sure that the locked actually worked, it did, i couldn’t understand why it kept opening. Then I heard a knock on the door (i think laura was there but I’m not for sure) but there were no shadows of feet from the hall way, course I never answered it I was to scared!!! This was a time where I didn’t feel all that great with this spirit lurking around, it felt like she was mad at me for something.


There have been rumors that Laura’s mom and stepdads house was haunted by a woman figure a young woman figure. Their house is a Victorian style home, and was once back when it was built was a doctors office, and it was said that a young girl died there, either from cancer or from birth, the story has never been TOO clear as to what it was.

The previous tenants of the home stated that they would see a girl standing on the second landing of the stairs. Or the piano playing and everyone was a sleep. Her step father stated that he’s seen her 2 times, and they’ve heard the balls breaking on the pool table and everyone was asleep or the piano was playing by it self.

One day Laura, my cousin C, and myself were fooling around on the Ouji board, and we made contact (however i do not really believe in the Ouji board) with this ghost. She stated that she was next to the door, we were in the dark and we were scared poopless. I said yeah right, and then my chair started moving back in forth (i was in a swivle desk chair) and my feet were flat on the floor. Laura and C thought that I was faking but then they could see my face in the moonlight and KNOW that I was not fooling with them, “No, guys, I am not doing this.” then the curtains over the door moved like someone was standing behind them, it was freaky. I said “oh alright I don’t believe this” and turned on the ceiling light. And loudly I said “if you are really here I want you to move this piece of chalk (billards chalk).” we all looked at it and it didn’t move. I said “Fine whatever” and we went back to the ouji board, and i asked “can you move the chalk” and it said ‘yes’ and I said ‘fine prove it’ and it said ‘hand’ and i was like WTF? Then I realized she wanted it in someones hand, why I have no idea. So i got back up and C turned on the light and I put the chalk in my hand, my hand was out flat. I said “go head move it” and it took a flying leap out of my hand, and NO i didn’t do it, my hand never moved from the position that it was first in, both Laura and C saw it, and they were totally freaked. I felt this cold air on my hand before the chalk moved. Needless to say that i never doubted that she was there, i can’t remmber her darn name, she had told me once at another friends house when i made contact with her before on the ouji board before this night. She stated taht in my past life (which I don’t believe in) I was friends with her and Laura, and we had 2 little chidlren who were friends. She told me her name, Laura, if you read this let me know what her name was I started with a J or an R but i can’t remember.


I was 13 and I was a really religous thirteen year old. My friends and I went inside this abandoned work site and went into the basement and we saw all these devil worshiping things spray painted on the walls. Even entering the building freaked me out I felt this dark presence just when I entered the door, I didn’t want to go in, but I went not look like i was a wimp. When we went down to the basement it smelt so bad, like rotting flesh, my heart started pounding, I started sweating, and I couldn’t breath. I ran up the stairs and waited for the others to come outside. They explored more than I had thought they would, it was 2 girls and 3 boys besides myself.

I wasn’t able to watch scary movies at this age because they REALLY scared me, so this in itself was tramatizing. I felt this evil presence down in the basement, and I felt that I carried it home with me. The other kids felt the same way but yet they stayed in there for that long.

When I was younger and I would feel really scared and feel overwhelmed with evil spirits (i felt them a lot when I was a kid, not so much anymore, I think kids notice more then adults) I would chant in my head over and over “i love Jesus, I love Jesus, you can’t have me I love Jesus” and I would feel much better.

I was in bed trying to go to sleep about a week after the “exploring” and I had this scary feeling over me and I chanted my chant and it wasn’t working, I looked up and something black and thick like smoke, was floating above my bed, I said out loud “I love Jesus, I love Jesus” and it like angered this floating being and they came crashing down on me, I couldn’t breath I felt like someone was strangling me. My arms were pinned down stretched out on either side of me, I couldn’t move them. I was joking, and it felt like some one was sitting on my chest. I just kept repeating in my head “i love jesus i love jesus” and then I saw this flash of light out of the corner of my eye (now it could of been a cars head light but I’d like to think it was a gaurdian angel), and when that light flashed the “evil” presence was gone.

I woke up the next morning with bruises on both my arms and on my throat, I could never explain to my mother what actually happened to me, so i just said “i dunno where they came from” half the truth I really didn’t know! But to this day I still feel that maybe a deamon was either trying to kill me or something worse, which I don’t want to think about.

And that my friends is a true story, and I still can remember how i felt and what I thought, and I still feel the sweat rolling down my face like it just happened to me yesterday.


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A Survey

1. What is your best friend’s grandma’s name?

2. Where is the weirdest place you have a mole?
Hmm. No comment.

3. Who was the hottest teacher you’ve ever had?
I had two hot teachers one in coffeyville and one at oklahoma union. Mr. Smith from the ville, and Mr. Thompson from OU, and they were both math teachers, go figure!

4. Have you ever made out in a movie theater?
Once or twice.

5. What body part do you wash first?
My Tail

6. Do you hover over the toilet in public bathrooms?
I try to stay away from the public bathrooms *restrooms* as much as possible, but if i can not wait or am forced to go in (don’t know why I’d be forced) then I try to stay away from the Toilet as you never know who’s a$$ was on there last, YUCKIE.

7. What’s the strangest talent you have?
All animals gather around me, i’m the modern day Snow White, without the black silky hair, snow white skin or the body!

8. Do you have an innie or an outtie?

9. What’s your favorite flavored Pringles?
I’m strange I don’t like pringles

10. Have you ever been tied up? Do you want to be?
What kind of question is this?! You perv!

11. What was the last thing you ever got grounded for?
I’m almost 27 years old…grounded?!?! PFFT.

12. Do you parallel park or drive around the block?
Actually I just purchased one of those 80,000 dollar lexus with the 700 dollar parellel parking feature, where it parallel parks itself.

13. Have you ever had two dates in one night?

14. How many times have you been cussed out?
You don’t have my current job, it’s an everyday occurance (sp?)

15. Which shoe do you put on first?
I don’t know my left? is this a trick question?

16. In one word, describe your a**.

17. Have you ever been to a gay bar?

18. Girls: Out of Madonna, Aunt Bee, Oprah Winfrey, and Paris Hilton, who are you most like?
Aunt Bee. Out of the choices Oprah Winfrey is rich which ain’t me, Paris Hilton is a skanky slut, again not me, and Madonna is looney, although I don’t want to claim myself as looney where others may think I am, that’s not me.

19. Is there one thing all of your love interests have had in common?

20. Did you French kiss before you were 16?
Yes I did, infact that is how the big “sex” talk came about. Do you realize that if you french kiss you’ll have a baby?!? Well that’s what I was told…some how I haven’t gotten pregnant yet, hmmm….was my mom on crack?

21. Have you ever been cow-tipping or snipe-hunting?
Snipe-hunting wtf is that? Is that where you hunt snipers? Cow-tipping yes I have done that.

22. Who is the last person you usually think about before you fall asleep?
I don’t know I’m usually thinking “damit go to sleep” so i guess sleep for me is considered a person.

23. Have you ever had a poem written about you?
Yes, my father wrote a poem the after adopting me it is in a fram hanging in my house, I love my daddy!

24. You’re in a public bathroom and there’s no toilet paper. What do you do?
Okay, who the heck doesn’t check the toilet paper dispenser before using the restroom? I think a guy wrote this survey….

25. Have you ever found anything in your parent’s bedroom that was questionable?
Um no, and I think if I had I’d be more disturbed then what I am already.

26. What was your childhood nickname?
Shortcake or Nimwhit take your pick.

27. When is the last time you played the air guitar?
when I was a kid

28. Have you ever peeked into the opposite sex’s locker room?
Everytime I walk by. 😉

29. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve done while driving?
Well I tend to just drive, as the other occupants in their cars are just freaking out because I’m on the road…

30. Have you ever bitten your toenails?
what the hell?? Who does that? I don’t bend that way.

31. How do you eat your cookies?
What kind of question is that? Fast? (kept answer liked it)

32. When working out at the gym, do you wear a belt?
Know i have no problem keeping my fat a$$ in my pants. (yes, i know what the questions is asking).

33. Name something you do when you’re alone that you wouldn’t do in front of anyone.
I pick my nose.

34. Girls: Do you shave your toes? Guys: Do you shave your chest?
Yes, I have, I’ve also shaved my arms, swimmers go to the extreme when it comes to shaving!

35. Have you ever played doctor and nurse or a similar game?
Oh yeah, got in trouble for doing that once.

36. How many drinks does it take before you get drunk?
i’m a light weight so i would have to say um 3?

37. Have you ever sniffed an animal’s butt? What kind?
What kind of person ACTUALLY does that? You have to be on some strong crack to do such a disgusting horrid thing.

38. How often do you clean out your ears?
When I lose my ability to hear due to all the wax build-up.

39. Do you scrunch or fold your toilet paper?
Fold (goes with my OCD)

40. About how many times a day do you pick a wedgie?
2, maybe 3. What kind of question is this?

41. Do you have any strange phobias?
I hate spiders, yuckie stupid things that seem to chase you because they know you are gonna sqaush them!! YUCK

42. Have you ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
My finger

43. What is the stupidest thing you’ve ever done at a bar or a party?
fall flat on my face.

44. Have you ever been dared to do something you totally regretted?

45. Have you ever called your love interest by an ex’s name?
no, i don’t think so

47. Have you ever played naked twister?
Joked around about it a lot but never actually did it.

48. Have you ever been drunk at work?
I’ve come to work still drunk does that count?

49. Have you ever found your date’s/lover’s brother or sister more attractive?

50. Do you want to bring sexy back?
what kind of question is this? ahhh Sure i guess.


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So, it’s Friday. Yeah, it is, woohoo. Yeah, that didn’t sound very conviencing did it? I’m not feeling so hot. I keep getting hot and cold flashes, and what I really want to do is be in bed curled up with the pups, and sipping a hot cup of tea. But, unfortunialty I’m stuck here at work. Yea! No, not really (on the Yea! part).

I have no nose, well, I have a nose, I just can’t breath through it right now. Well, I can breath through the left nostril just fine it’s the right one that is all clogged, yeah, I know, you didn’t really want to know that. SORRY!

I watched the Omen last night, the new remake, yeah, it’s not worth your time wasting watching that movie. BOREINGVILLE.

That’s really pretty much it, I know, I know, what a post huh?!?


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Bats, and other things

Well lets see the Video blog I looked horrible!!! I either look stoned out of my mind or exhausted, and I know I wasn’t stoned, so must of been the exhausted part.

See a couple of nights ago I went outside with dogs in tow to let them use the potty, and I heard fluttering in the Evergreen tree above me. This is one BIG evergreen (i think that is what it is, i’m pretty much stupid on trees). I didn’t think much of it then, just went along my business and so did the doggies.

Last night I go outside and I hit the screen door on one of the branches, and this black thing came and dive bombed my head, it was around 9 o’clock so it was pretty dark outside, and when I bent down to put the pups in their outside pen, it did it again. I got a look at it, it resembled a bat, yes, a bat. I about pissed my pants, Jade was extremely scared out of skin, and didn’t want to go potty. Katie, was oblivious to the whole ordeal, she had business to take care of.

I come back inside and IM James. “Are there bats in this area?” and came back with “Yes.” and I said “I just had one dive bomb my head” and he laughed. I didn’t think it was that funny myself. So I have a bat in my tree, just great. I wonder if the dog catcher will take in bats. I know I will not invite the bat in, so that way there will be no chance of him sucking my blood and turning me into a vampire, LOL.

Today I’ve been in an off mood. Rachel knows this. My job is beginning to suck sweaty goat balls, graphic huh? I have cried 3 times while sitting at my desk at work. No one noticed, I can cry very quietly, the tears just build up and fall out of my eye sockets. I don’t know what is wrong with me right now. It’s like im PRE Pmsing or something. My lower back is killing me, I can’t seem to find a comfortable posistion to sit, and I basically just want to go home, and never come back to this place ever again. But, I know that this can not happen, I mean I DO have to get a paycheck somehow. I thought about working the corner of our busiest street in town to earn some extra cash flow. But, I don’t know.

I will post more video blogs, but I will make sure I look 100 percent better than I did last night, good gawd, can we say catirpillar (sp?) crawling across my forhead, GEESH!!!


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Scared, cold and tired….blah

Well J and I had a nice evening, I went over there around 8:30 this evening, we then went to bville to walmart, where he needed some things. We got back home around Midnight. I headed back home where I just about side swibed some poor bastard as he was in my blind spot. I truly felt sorry but thankfully i corrected myself before I actually did any damage, I’m sure he about pissed his pants (pissed is um my word of choice it seems, lol).

I came home to a pretty cold home, I’m not turning my heaters on until I absolutely have to! I have an electric blanket so at least i will not freeze while I sleep.

I watched the new horror movie “Stay Alive” and well um…I’m scared now LOL. I’m glad I’m not a gamer! Not that a game can come to life or anything, but still the concept of the movie freaked my crap out! I don’t mind horror movies, I love to watch them actually, but this is the first one ever that I’ve actually talked to the damn tv, telling the poor bastards to get out!! LOL, I went a bit insane on them, lol. It’s a pretty good flick if you are into horror!! The scariest part to me was Angelina Jolie’s brother, not his character just him, himself. He’s a little freaky!!! LOL.

Well like the title states I’m Scared, freezing to death (my body is shivering as I type this you can see my breath, it’s a sad ordeal really, lol, I need to NOT be stubborn and turn the heat on), and I’m extremely tired.

So until next post, you all have an absolutely lovely Early Saturday morning!!! NIGHTERS!!!


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